Through with Chew
I have been chewing tobacco on and off for about 5 years. Not ideal. For those of you unfamiliar with it chewing is like smoking, but much more gross. It saves those around you from the smoke. However, you become that guy with a cup of his own spit in the corner. It’s awful.
I have quit about 4 times. Each time I swear this is the last time. Then I say “I will have just one dip.” It never is. Then I go a couple months and quit again.
Every time before I have told myself that I can have just one in a couple months. It wont be a big deal. That is true at first. Then comes the craving again.
This Time is Different….. Maybe
This time I am telling myself never again. I don’t want cancer, I don’t want to show my kids that this is okay, I don’t want to hold my spit like a creep!
On top of that I added it up and I am paying between $80.00 and $100.00 a month for the stuff. So I’m calling it quits and this time for good…. I hope.
The stuff is tricky. Once you think you’ve kicked it you can be lured back in. It is gross but feels amazing. Probably like most drugs.
Here WE GO!!
I’m already getting the general malaise and not feeling my best. On the other hand I haven’t felt this productive in months. Almost like I was being poisoned and now I’m not. The Poison might have felt good, but it was affecting other things I didn’t realize were suffering.
I’ll keep updating. It sucks but doesn’t last forever.